I don’t know why I thought I’d be any different, then but while I was deplotted and in combat, I entirely thought that once I got home, it would all be okay, but all I had to do was to get back to the States. Of course, I had heard of PTSD from combat but I didn’t believe that would affect me; Yet, it did and now, thanks to medical marijuana, I’m facing the fact that I have PTSD, then that was so much a part of the initial steps of treating this condition, i simply had too much pride to even consider that I wasn’t mentally difficult enough to come home and leave the carnage I witnessed behind. I mean, men like me had been doing this since the dawn of time… What I’m learning though is that PTSD has been with us that long as well. But it was sort of swept under the rug. And the fact that I’m using medical cannabis was a bit hard for me to accept initially as well. I had always viewed recreational marijuana as something for the weak, and even when I was in college, I went the other way when the recreational marijuana showed up, but so I had a couple of pressing hurdles to get over initially. Thanks to my group therapy, I was able to accept the fact that I have PTSD. Once I saw some of the strongest people I’d ever seen talk about their feelings, I knew this condition had nothing to do with will. And group therapy was also where I figured out how to get a medical marijuana card. That was one of the first things a couple of older vets made crystal clear to me. The cannabis products are helping me feel safe enough to labor through what I’ve endured.