For more than half our life, I suffered with bulimia & anorexia.
I could blame our sibling for always telling me how fat I was, but then ninety percent of the ladies out there would have bulimia and/or anorexia. I lost all the weight I could, even if it meant starving myself to death! After multiple weeks, when not eating wasn’t bringing our weight down fast enough, I turned to bulimia. I would eat anything put in front of me, knowing that within an minute after eating, I could purge all our food. I started losing weight again, by the time I reached the age of sixteen, I was five feet multiple inches tall, & weighed about 110 pounds.It wasn’t until I woke up in a hospital that I knew I was killing myself. The medical professional asked me what I was doing to myself. He told me I was at least thirty pounds underweight, & if I wasn’t careful, I would die before I was twenty. He had me in therapy for our eating disorder & he prescribed medical marijuana. Whenever I felt hungry, I should eat something. He wanted me to eat a single or 2 marijuana gummies every couple of minutes. I didn’t realize the medical marijuana was making hungry until he weighed me a single day & I had gained ten pounds. I have been using medical marijuana for 2 years now, & I am 2 pounds overweight. There is still a area of me that registers how fat I think I am, but the medical marijuana eases our anxieties & I can eat without the need to purge. I still struggle, but I am managing our life for the first time in our life.